I’m trying to find sleep. Before I finally
succumb to my feathered pillows, allow me to use this space to reflect on the
experiences I had and express my gratitude to the year that was. Well, or is going to end a few hours from now.
2012 is a year full of anxiety and worry.
People from every corner of the world are succumbed to fear because of the
numerous predictions that this year’s gonna be mankind’s downfall. The Mayans
have predicted it and the heavens are showing us signs. As if they really tell
us anything aside from the day’s weather. It’s not that I’m being haughty or
anything, I just don’t think we’ll know when the world would just crumble and
die. I think the Guy from Above holds the key to everything—Mayans don’t and
the heavens are not as much as capable. Anyhoo, I still made my bucket list—don’t
worry it’s forward looking. It’s my to-do list before I reach my 25th
year and before I experience my own version of a quarter-life crisis. I thought
that I should make my 2012 happier amid all the worrying people and the anxious
world. I intend to accomplish as many as I can and eventually see myself a
better person every time I achieve something.
This year marked a lot of firsts for me. It
was my first time to purchase a phone more expensive than all the things I
bought on the previous year. And a chance to fulfill my year-long prayer
request to own a very nice camera.
It was also my first time to go out of the
country and I’m with friends. We went to Bangkok and from there we also had our
share of our own initiations to the real world. We did not get lost because we
blended in with the locals. We ate foreign food and enjoyed every place we
visited. We created new memories and forged stronger bonds. I was also given a
lot of opportunities to visit a number of places in my own country—it was my
virgin trip to Palawan’s Underground River and Cebu’s historical grounds. It
was also a first to finally appreciate Davao’s durian and marang—fruits I’ve
always shunned the scent before.
2012 had also been the year where I learned
to properly manage my hard-earned money. I opened my own savings account and
made sure that I save at least a tenth from my salary. It is also important to
offer my regular tithes in church. When I was still a student, I thought
tithing would guarantee that I would be financially blessed the whole month. So
if I fail to give, then expect that I would be poor for the rest of the month.
Pa and Ma told me it was wrong thinking—tithing is our way of thanking God for
the blessings He has entrusted us; more so, it is part of our obligation to Him
as a Christian. It is part of the service we give Him. The blessings we get
after are just bonus points for wholeheartedly serving and loving Him.
What made me happier this year was the
success of our business. To be honest, I wasn’t much confident about it
especially because I’m really not into fashion accessories. I thought it was
way out of my character to venture into such course—but things turned out for
the better. Since my partners are much better in choosing the products we’re
going to sell, I settled on the job behind the limelight. I did the lay-outs,
social media promotions and photo sessions. Later on, I find myself enjoying
the things I’m doing; I started finding comfort in seeing super girly
accessories and appreciating the beauty of these trinkets and sweet little
things. Sometimes, I find myself donning the simpler ones just to see if I can
pull them off. Wow, I can. Hahaha! After our sixth month run, we went on a
hiatus to give way to our personal lives. I was thinking it was over—our business
ideals have slowly died down. I felt sad but then again, I thought it was ok—I had
the chance to do business with friends and earn a bit from it. Most of all, I
find something to enjoy from a venture I never really thought was fit for me. I
was good with that. And then on November, the gears were brought to life again.
Awesome. We’re gaining a few bucks online. In December, after several pep
talks, my partners decided to try our charms in a Christmas bazaar. Again, the
feeling of failing blipped but this time, I was confident we can at least break
things even should we fall short of our envisioned success. We’ll charge it to
experience, I said. We ended up going to our second Christmas bazaar and
earning more than what we hoped for. God is just so good. We might have been
tricked into being paid fake money by supposed customers, but that bad feeling
is overturned by the many lessons we learned and the awesome things we
discovered in our growing friendship. Naks.
I felt myself yawning. My eyes are also
slowly drooping, betraying my sight. They’re subtly telling me to take the
night’s rest. The sun would soon rise. Allow me to cap this post with a big
thank you to my big God. I know I’ve never been the perfect child—I have my own
share of mistakes and shortcomings and I’ve always apologized for that. I was
just amazed by the many blessings You give despite all of these flaws. Because
of this, I thank You. This year had been one helluva of ride—we had our ups and
downs. I found myself disappointed and jaded sometimes, but looking at the many
things You’ve lovingly given me, pushes me to be more than contented with my
life. It has been awesome with You Lord and I pray and hope that the next year
would be as happy as this year had been to me. The world would soon come to an
end but only You know it. I continue to entrust my life to You. Again, thank
Have a happy new year everyone! Let’s start
our 2013 by doing something right. We’ve always prayed for a better place to
live in—might as well see that this would happen if you start by positively
changing your heart. J
I’m leaving you with Desperation Band’s
and Hillsong’s And My Soul Knows Very Well.
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