Ha! Finally, that much coveted weekend.
I felt that I’d been to quiet and detached lately. Maybe
because my mind had been talking a lot, nonsense thoughts and meanderings
usually. The outcome: I have worried too much about my schedules and ended up
procrastinating on each activity. I managed to produce a fairly decent class
presentation and a half-baked paper proposal for my Wednesday class. And then
of course, failed to submit a paper due this week, ended up doing overtime work
just because, and did not show up for Muay training. Majorly unproductive this
week.
I tried to reason out there are phases to it. But
previous ~trends show that I tend to overcome before Friday comes. I did not do
so this week, and during the past few weeks. I was constantly looking forward
to moments spent on either dozing off to oblivion or lying down and
daydreaming. I promised myself that I’ll finish nagging tasks this weekend so I
can start anew on the coming week. I ticked off 2 out of 6 from my Reminders
list; four more to go. I have until Sunday afternoon. We can do this, self!
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In other news, I told a friend that it felt so
difficult and frustrating to deal with people I call “tulisan.” They lie, steal
and cheat; but they manage to project themselves unblemished in front of other
people. It burdens me; especially because I cannot do anything “concrete” about
it. I wish I could just jab-straight-jab or jab-straight-hook their cheating
faces, but of course it does not resolve anything. Rather, it makes everything
worse because I stooped down to their level.
So how do we deal with lower-life forms? Friend
reminded me something golden: it will always be frustrating and even tiring. But
the experience is loaded with lessons that should be learned well. In the
process, “whatever you do, to survive or to fight back, do not lose your soul.”
Loyalty and patience. Always patience.
Ok, payt! \m/
Labels: feelings, friends, patience, ronin, weekends